What ESSENCE Wants.
ESSENCETV EPISODE #13: SUPERWOMAN NEEDS SAVING TOO
Posted 25 March 2008
-sigh- ..when will she learn?
I live for other people. Plain and simple. I've known this for a long time now, and for a while had just accepted the fact that I was placed on this Earth to help people, and that's what makes me happy.
"This is your brain after Essence told you 'no' for the first time.."
It's getting to be very heavy and overwhelming. I'm starting to feel like a droid or something, but at the same time my goal in life is to save the world. A lot of times, though, people want to be saved but aren't willing to try and save themselves. It's like if Shaquille O'Neal had fallen down. Not a bruise or scratch on him, but he wanted me to pull him onto his feet with my bare hands, but wouldn't even lift his arm for me to grab to help him up. What the fuck am I supposed to do??
"Hey move my hand and scratch my balls why you're at it."
Currently, I am praying about it, for God makes no mistakes. I'm working on doing things because I WANT to do them, and not because I feel like I HAVE to, and not for fear of disappointing others if I say "no." I gotta get out of that.
With that said, here is a list of things that ESSENCE wants:
1. I want to open my own facility for the betterment of our children. (Youth center, counselling practice, mentoring, preschool, etc.)
2. I want to become bilingual.
3. I want at least 3 more degrees.. definitely more if I can.
4. I want to travel more.
5. I want the man that I know I deserve, and not the man everybody forces on me cuz they feel I should hurry up and get a man already! (I've done that 3 times already.. THREE times!! NONONO more!!)
6. I want to start using my mom's input as just that.. input, NOT the decision-maker.
7. I. Want. To be. HAPPY.
Over time, as you come back to this post, you may find this list longer. Hopefully.
What's on your list?