The Essence of Essence..

Part of this whole "lack of fulfillment" thing for me is the mind-numbing repetitiveness of being forced to do the exact same thing day in and day out. Go to work, go home, entertain the baby, go to sleep, repeat. Find a place to occupy the baby's time on weekends. It sucks, in all honesty. This is the reality of it. My fiance is always telling me that I can do anything I want to do and be successful at it, and I'm always telling him that I don't have anything I really enjoy doing. However, in retrospect I guess there are a whole lot of things I like doing. One of those things is wine. I like to have wine. Actual photo representation of Sidney and I. #Goals For my birthday this year, I went out to Tennessee and experienced my first wine-tasting. Five bucks for a glass and a myriad of wines to try. Can't beat it! I was surprised and excited to learn that wine is made with many different types of fruits besides wine. This should have been obvious n...

What do you do when you're torn between what you want to do and what you're "supposed" to do? By "supposed," I mean something you may have been conditioned to do your entire life. School, for example. You know from the time you are young that you're "supposed" to go to school and get good grades. Maybe people at your school and your family are emphasizing the importance of continuing your education by going to college so that you can get a good job and start a career. Then, you decide that you don't want anything to do with school. Do you stay to appease everyone around you? Do you risk doing something "else"? There are folks out there may not understand your choices. There may be a risk that these people will never forgive you for these choices? Or maybe they will judge you.. think you're dumb or something. Is your opinion really the only one that matters here? It's your life, right? RIGHT? I'm walking my j...

So I'm currently headed somewhere up into the mountains of Tennessee for some (hopeful) rest & relaxation while on this work holiday. Also, My birthday is tomorrow. I will be 31. I'm fxcking old. I said in my last post I'd give y'all an update on my life, so here it is: First of all, I continued my education after GA State and got my Master's at Clark Atlanta University. During that time I was still super active on YouTube, even having my videos featured on an app called Urban Gossip once a week! However, a couple weeks before finals, my computer crashed. All my notes and papers for school, along with video footage for my channel, GONE. I graduated anyway (magna cum laude!) but never posted another vid again. I'm still at the same job. I started as a Bus Monitor/Substitute, did that for a year then moved up to Early Head Start Teacher. Specifically, I was in the 2-year-old classroom. I did that for like 5 years and I am now entering into my second year...