The Essence of Essence..

sometimes i wonder if i really am a has been: has been loved yet has been lost again. hasnt been felt since feelings has been in. has been missed back then yet cant win. to me, love was meant for me to put my all in, but he felt like a dropout.. didn't wanna put his all in. the more i tried to climb, the more that i was fallin. so while he came out on top, i was on the bottom crawlin you can't tell me i'm no good. maybe i'll give you one up and say i'm damaged goods, but i chose to step my game up, thought it'd be all good. now i'm sittin here thinkin bout it all, and don't feel good. these words would come out shakey if i spoke them aloud. i'm crying inside. and i'm not proud to expound on the reality of the pain that i've found. i'd be cool if i'd had you around. how come everybody else's issues are so easy? for everybody's questions i have answers; i have reasons.. but as i drag my burden from season to season it grows and...

Pictured: Tila showcasing all of her talents. I'm sorry. I generally like to give people the benefit of the doubt as often as possible but Tila Tequila.. shut the hell UP! I was following her once. I honestly think she's an awesome person. She just runs her mouth tooooo much! The first time I'd heard about her was waaay back in the day. I read about her on a magazine interview (King, I think). She was telling some story about how someone had pissed her off and she'd beat that ass, and I remember thinking that was awesome cuz she mentioned how tiny she was and I always love to see someone represent for the short folks! lol Plus I respected how she built what she had off of Myspace alone, pre-Soulja Boy, if I'm not mistaken.. Anywho, a couple years later is when her show came out and I was really into the first season. Second season.. not so much. Also, I love her song "I Love You." That's my ish. So naturally, I followed her on Twitter when I first go...