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Road Trip Time!!

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First things first, as you can see I changed the look of my blog. I made this blog in 2009 and designed the look myself, back when we were still in the MySpace era and everybody knew how to code before we knew how valuable coding was. Coding has left my memory, unfortunately, so I have to settle for one of the default templates on this site. One of my biggest regrets. lol.

Anywho, back to these life updates.

Motherhood has been very good to me. It's been hard but a transition like the one I've experienced can never come easy. My mind is different. My body is very different. I am a good 20 pounds lighter than I was BEFORE pregnancy. I can't gain the weight back, probably because I'm still breastfeeding. Tummy on fleek but my curves are gone. Hips, thighs, and hindquarters. It's been depressing watching my body change in this way.

Sidney's response has been "You've been complaining all this time about wanting to tighten up your midsection and now it'…

First Month of Unemployment.

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These last few weeks have been weird because it's been like a whirlwind but a standstill at the same time. I've been in California for the last month and a half. I go back to GA in a few days, and I'm honestly not ready.. but I have to go home and adult.

I was hoping to have some sort of plan implemented by now, but all Sidney and I have really been doing is relaxing and having fun. Right now, mom-in-law has the baby. She came to pick him up a few minutes ago so she could run errands with her sister and introduce her grandchild to some people. It's been like this the entire time we've been in Cali, and I haven't felt this much peace since before I got pregnant. We've taken trips to San Diego, Rancho Cucamonga, Vegas.. hell even a trip down to the mall feels like a vacation when you don't have to worry about the baby. We were supposed to be in LA right now, but Sidney is under the weather, so I figured I'd hit ya'll with an update, if ya'll c…

Two weeks to go!

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It is Monday, 5 December 2016. The time is now 2:16pm.
Life has been a whirlwind and I haven't even officially left my job yet. 
I'm sitting here at my desk, with an intern that has been assigned to help me get my workload together before I leave. He's sitting here doing nothing because, quite frankly, I don't have anything that I want him to do. 
It's not like I don't have work to do. I have 2 weeks left, and I actually have a bit of a workload in front of me. However, on Friday, my job disabled my email. This morning, I came in to discover that they disabled my login for my computer. They disabled my account to get into the system that I use for work.
So, I promptly disabled a large number of the fxcks I have left. 
I was fully prepared to sit at this desk and do nothing, BUT it is not within my nature to give NO fxcks. (Does that make sense? lol) I went ahead and notified mgmt to get my accounts back.
And now I'm blogging. 

Anyway, I am 10 working days a…

Life after the letter.

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So here I am, a week and some change after turning in my resignation. I'm not sure what I was expecting but what I CAN say is that I feel like a huge weight has been lifted from me.

The blog and the announcement was sort of a shock to some. Mostly coworkers. A lot of folks just weren't surprised. Of course, the rumor mill spread. A few people (i.e. those who never read my last blog) assumed the pressure and stress of the job is running me away. Nope.. I could handle the job just fine.. if my heart was still in it.

Anyway, ever since I got the email saying my resignation has been accepted I have found myself a bit lighter on my feet as I stroll the hallways of my job. It's easier for me to deal with parts of the job that I was having a hard time dealing with before. I'm able to speak my mind easier. I can say things to my supervisors that I was too intimidated to say before. I find myself wondering: "Where was all of this energy and confidence before?"

Now tha…

So I quit my job today..

.. or rather, submitted a letter of resignation.

When I've said that I've been feeling a change coming, this is one of those major things I was talking about. I've been dealing with being unhappy for a long time now. It's not necessarily the job itself, but a JOB IN GENERAL. I sit at this desk every weekday of my life and daydream about a different type of life. I try to work on other endeavors while I'm off, but even something as simple as a hobby is damn near impossible because when I'm not at work, I have mommy duties. When I don't have mommy duties, I'm at work. Sometimes those two things loop into each other. And when I have a moment to have a break from both all I'm trying to do is REST.

I thank God every day that I was able to land a great-paying job at a respected agency right out of college. I was hired before I even graduated, which was a huge blessing and I am very proud of that accomplishment. I was convinced that I was going to be the w…

I need a hobby..

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Part of this whole "lack of fulfillment" thing for me is the mind-numbing repetitiveness of being forced to do the exact same thing day in and day out. Go to work, go home, entertain the baby, go to sleep, repeat. Find a place to occupy the baby's time on weekends. It sucks, in all honesty. This is the reality of it.

My fiance is always telling me that I can do anything I want to do and be successful at it, and I'm always telling him that I don't have anything I really enjoy doing. However, in retrospect I guess there are a whole lot of things I like doing.

One of those things is wine. I like to have wine.



For my birthday this year, I went out to Tennessee and experienced my first wine-tasting. Five bucks for a glass and a myriad of wines to try. Can't beat it!

I was surprised and excited to learn that wine is made with many different types of fruits besides wine. This should have been obvious now that I think about it, but the thought never occurred to me. I…

Can Anyone Hear Me?!

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What do you do when you're torn between what you want to do and what you're "supposed" to do?
By "supposed," I mean something you may have been conditioned to do your entire life. School, for example. You know from the time you are young that you're "supposed" to go to school and get good grades. Maybe people at your school and your family are emphasizing the importance of continuing your education by going to college so that you can get a good job and start a career. Then, you decide that you don't want anything to do with school. Do you stay to appease everyone around you? Do you risk doing something "else"? There are folks out there may not understand your choices. There may be a risk that these people will never forgive you for these choices? Or maybe they will judge you.. think you're dumb or something. Is your opinion really the only one that matters here? It's your life, right?
RIGHT?
I'm walking my journey rig…