The Essence of Essence..

You've been a HELL of a rollercoaster, so far. As the first month of a new year draws to a close, I'm already feeling like I've been pulled in all kinds of directions, up and down, around in circles, and back again.   E V E R Y   S I N G L E  emotion. I can HONESTLY say.. if this is setting the stage for the rest of the year, then WOW. I'm not sure I can handle all that's coming. Shit. I feel like banging my head against a friggin wall already. I'm thinking what my problem may be is that things are happening entirely too fast. To much raw info. Too much tea spilling. Good news then bad news then worse news then better news. I feel like I'm running through my present. This will be my year to delve back into the past, as my homie Shani put it. More than once this year I've found myself looking behind me.. seeing my past in a steady jog.. trying to catch up to me. I find myself slowing my stroll.. I really don't know wha...

Quite a bit has changed since my post on celibacy last year, but I'm happy to say that I stuck with it. As of 13 Dec 2010, I have been celibate for a year, and it feels good! Of course, folks try and make me feel bad about it, and although I cared before I don't care now. :o) I would like to say again.. that my journey to be celibate is just that.. MINE. I do NOT think that there is anything wrong with casual sex. Nobody is a whore simply for being sexually liberated. However I.. with my fragile heart.. know that I personally cannot handle those kind of relationships. My heart ALWAYS gets involved. And for those men (i.e. MOST men) who tend to not have the desire to progress past casual sex, things can get ugly. Friendships have been lost and hearts (mine) have been broken. TOO many times. I want somebody to appreciate my mind FIRST.. accept my heart SECOND while offering his.... and then he can get all the pussy he wants. Anytime. Period. Do I encourage other wome...

Everybody knows that I spend a lot of time on Twitter, tweeting my life away. Sometimes I talk about real shit, but I’d say for me 75% of Twitter is strictly entertainment. I tend to follow mostly people that I know, and only people that are also following me, with the exception of some news accounts and Twitter troubleshooting pages. With that said, here are the 20 people on Twitter that I find the most interesting. You should follow them too! Keep in mind, these arent in any particular order. 1. @ NikaDiva Nika is my sister and best friend.. the Yang to my Yin, but that is not why she’s on my list. A fiesty ass lesbian, people who follow her are definitely guaranteed to be entertained lol. As sweet as my sister is, she’s a firecracker who sounds off on whatever is pissing her off at the time. She is also living with Lupus, so follow her to get a better understanding of the condition. 2. @ kellz314 Kellz is another homegirl of mine. We’ve been friends for about 4 years now. Sh...

You ever feel unfulfilled even though you feel like you ARE fulfilled and should be fulfilled? Well, that's how I feel. Already I'm feeling like maybe I should try something different. Let me explain: Right now I've been living my dream. I've known since I was a child that I wanted to work with children. (Either that or animals, but I hate biology so animal doctor.. no. lol) I busted my ass in school working for the degrees I have. Almost gave up on school a few times for no reason other than just being TIRED. Got KICKED OUT of the Georgia State University Early Childhood Education program over some bullshit and STILL kept going and ended up graduating a whole year earlier than I would have been graduating had I stayed with that program and.. guess what? STILL doing what I was trying to do: Teach early childhood. I love my job and while it is not moving along as quickly as I had hoped, I still come into work every single day because I love it and I'm learni...