We could've been in love forever.. but the fear consumed me.


How often does this happen? You find yourself wanting to express yourself.. really let someone know how you feel about them.. then the fear sets in. You don't want to be blatantly dissed, nor politely shut down. With the existence of texting and instant messaging it's easy to type something up and then sit on it for awhile.. stare at it and think about whether or not you really wanna hit "send." I supposed that's why people prefer this to speaking on the phone, or face to face. You can't speak the words and watch them in a little comic speech bubble.. decide if you want it to be said or not. Once it comes out of your mouth, there's no taking it back. That's scary.

I admit, I definitely prefer texting & IM to speaking.. my real-life social skills are shot thanks to the internet & texting. I've definitely sat on an unsent message time and time again.. proofreading.. only to end up revising.. or deleting the whole thing altogether.

SMH.. I wonder what would have happened if I just put it all out there for you to read.. to save into your "Saved" folder or IM archive...........

I've probably missed out on love a few times. It's probably walking on by me as I (gingerly) type up this blog.. shit I actually just wrote a few sentences about how I feel about him and thought "fuck it".. and deleted it. Ya'll don't need to know all that.

At the same time, it may be the only way he'll know....

-Essence shrug- Oh, well..

Find the time this week to build the courage to tell someone how you really feel. Send the first message you type up.. no deleting. Or take it a step further.. and CALL. You never know.. feelings may be mutual.. you could be unknowingly denying yourself the opportunity to love.

Don't be skurred.

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