Footsteps

artificial moonlight invades my solace
my eyes ajar as i view the notes tinkling from solstice
i reach out and touch it.. and my ears burn
the sound from whence the sun sets makes me want to rip out my eardrums
all peace is lost as disappointment settles


ALL is lost for me


and i walk along and watch my footsteps in the sand
left to right
i've walked alone
oftentimes i've looked and saw a second pair drift towards me, only to drift away in silence
but who cares, really.


walk on, simple entity.
four footsteps will remain someday.


is it that i see in you what no one else sees?


your melody is enticing, passive. yet corresponding notes cause a flatness to your harmony.


wrapped in a parcel shrouded by faux perfection, i was blind but now i see.


my heart stands strong with optimism
though my mind stresses ALL is lost
my eyes stare at my footsteps in the sand, content upon the rolling grains
forced to travel to the deepest point of each newly-formed valley.

my mind shifts and my heart stops sometimes as i walk
i shake my head furiously.. want to cast it away


from cocaine to extasy to heroin.
it's consumed by intense intrigue
i believe in Samson, diametrically opposed
but maybe that's just to ease my soul.
the effects of indulging in a drug.. allowing it power.
i see what i feel like seeing, that is all.
to each my own.


trudge on, sweet innocence.
self-perceived bane existence,
simple cloaked entity..


four footsteps will remain someday.

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  1. Mo_ReaseSeptember 26, 2010 at 11:59 PM

    Great read :)

    "from cocaine to extasy to heroin.
    it's consumed by intense intrigue
    i believe in Samson, diametrically opposed
    but maybe that's just to ease my soul.
    the effects of indulging in a drug.. allowing it power.
    i see what i feel like seeing, that is all.
    to each my own."

    My favorite part.

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